Just as I had expected, I am finished for the prelims. Well,at least I learnt something from it. Whatever you put in is whatever you get, as Mrs Ngiam always says. Haha, but her version is ' when you get back your papers, you will know if miracles do happen'.Oh well, they really dont in this case. But, I am glad that I had not done well this prelims. Cos I am gonna get complacent when I do. Some ppl think I am crazy, but no, I am not. No matter how I tell myself, I really will have that kind of complacency. So, its good that I did badly, then, muhaha, can at least study harder and get better results.Lets just see.

I found 1 Jay Chou song that I heard on the radio and like it so much.But,I really cant find the album that has the song. Now I know it, its 'Ge Qian'. Its just so nice. The song really has quite a lot of emotions put into it. The kind of feeling where you just want to yell the song out and just let out your inner emotions and feelings. Its not some kind of rock song or heavy metal, but more like a pop or love song. I finally found it.

Been eating quite a lot of vitamins lately. Vitamin C, B complex, bilberry and Iron. Some are for boosting of the immune system, eye sight and some kinda stress formula thing to allow you give more concentration. Well, the concentration one really works.

Oh, and I changed my PDA. This one is much better, theres windows live messenger. I remembered when I was in shanghai and using the PDA in the train. So bored in there, nothing really to do. So decided to chat with the people in msn, then lag so much. With the windows live messenger, its gonna be much better. But sometimes I really dont use it so much so leave it with my dad and bro to do whatever they want with it.

A few more weeks to the coming 'O' levels. Not only is the academic result in my mind constantly now, but the memories of the school. The kind of stuff I did in sec 1 with my friends, the funny moments, the CCA, the classroom, the teachers, the kind of familiar environment I am in for 4 years. The place where I learnt to make more friends and learn newer stuff. Its all going to be etched in my memory for the rest of my life. Its really terrible to just part with all those moments and memories. They are unforgettable.

You make dreams worth daring, live worth risking, hardship worth going through, time worth spent and love worth loving.

Your warm smile just make you unforgettable to me... just so unforgettable

I am just loving you so quietly, so quietly

You are so beautiful. Never before in creation has there been anyone exactly like you. You are unique in the whole universe - and what to me can be more beautiful than you. I love you...

I do not want you to change anything, just your thoughts and love for me...

First, it was bai se feng che. Now, its tui hou. Well, that song went up to the top 10 hits of dongl883. so glad that 2 of Jay' songs are up there. I dont quite like the qian li zhi wai. Maybe I got sick of it. haha. For now, its tui hou.

I was just reading this research result, and I realised 1 thing. Attitude and self-confidence is very important to a person. Here is how the research goes...

The researchers gave a maths test to a class of 40 students. Their results were then collated and they were ranked. However, they were kept in the dark about their results and rankings. The researchers then placed them accordingly in 2 classes. The odd numbers in the ranking system were placed in this class A and the even in class B. So, there were the same number of smart and not so smart ppl in each class. The teachers for class A were not as experienced as those in class B.

The result? At e end of the year those in class A performed much better that those in class B.

Why? This is because those in class A believed that they were placed in there because they were successful. Thus, they wanted to continue their success. However, those in class B thought that no matter how hard they worked, they were still not as good. So, they lost confidence in themselves and stopped working towards their goals.

The moral of the story? Self-confidence is very important in everything you do, because it determines whether do you have the fortitude to continue with what you are doing and the results that you show, because self-confidence is the measure of the belief in what you are doing.

But, is it that important to know what others think of us? It is definetly more important to know what we think of ourselves, because we cannot cheat ourselves.

Well, I know I should think of the Os right now, but, yar, when I have some spare time, I cannot stop thinking of what I am going to do after the Os. Hmmmm.... I am going to do all these after the Os. Go to some soccer sch to do some training (mum approved), then learn how to play the pop piano(mum approved), play DOTA with my aunts and uncles, go my baby cousin house and play with him and run ard his house like siao to chase the dog, buy new mp3 player, play wwe cards, play FIFA 07 and NBA, install the DVD burner and new graphics card, watch HK drama shows, go play tennis at my cousin's condo, play arcade and complete time crisis 4, go the gym whack punch bag (lol) and I dunno what else. Like got a lot of things to do. But 1st, the Os. haha

If sincereity,truthfulness and true love is all that I need to have, then you are lying to me all along......

Can you teach me zhe3 me4 'shi1 lian4 xue2' ? Because I need it when you are gone....

Oh finished prelims. Which means, I am ALMOST finished. You know, cant give up any hope yet. haha.

Oh, I just finished catching channel 55's 9pm Hong Kong drama, The revolving doors of vengence. Wah, Joe ma is like so tall and quite suai (Im not a gay). Hmmm... Ron Ng is not bad too. Yeah, about the story line. 1 thing I learnt from it, sometimes, ppl who give bad comments to you or tell you about what improvements to make may not be really those bad ppl you view them to be, cos they are risking their relationship to tell you that. That's what happens in the show. I really cant believe that someone would purposedly be in a conflict with you just to bring you to your best abilities and to train you up well. Enough said, that show is really worth watching, cos at some stage you would feel just so sorry for this guy who had to be the baddie even though he was a good guy. The reason, he was there to repay his benefactor. Oh, the theme song is quite nice too. Gonna get it, esp. the piano part, very soothing.

Oh, have been going to my cousin's house to play tennis quite often these days. Arghh.. cant hit into the box, keep hitting onto the barrier and almost out of the condo. Haha. Then will go to the jacuzzi. Wo, quite shiok.

Sometimes, a person's actions can tell you all about his or her charactor. Actions speak louder than words

I dont want to lie to myself anymore. Its not point trying to forget those matters and carry on. Fact is, I never forgotten them, the memory of your sweet smile, your laughter. Tell me, how do I get to you? I dont want to lose you. Your presence brings me love. Your words tell me the story of love, of care, of happiness. Its tough to stay back and see you from a distance, minding the fact that I have to be far from you. Its just too hurting for me. Heal me with your TRUE LOVE

The first week of the prelims are over. Status now? Slaughtered. haha. ok, I dont think I can survive many papers, cos nv really study a lot mah. But nvm, there is still the Os, but the risk is bigger, b'cos its a make or break and no extra chances.

Finally laid my hands on Jay Chou's new album. Well, I only like abt, 4 songs from there? Maybe have not gotten a liking to the others yet. But there is 1 song that I think is the 'zhu da ge'(hottest song in the album in chi), BAI SE FENG CHE!!! This song is nice, well, listened to it for like 70 plus times liao, but I still cant get the lyrics right.

Went to KL house today.Then played the usual stuff with the usual people and some 'special' task. Well, quite fun, all of us had a really really good laugh over it. Poh said that if we were to die in KL's house, it would be to die of laughter. Haha.

People in the past think that S'pore cannot succeed, b'cos of its size, the amt of resources she had, the amt of funds the govt held, compared to the other states in the world, it was a big world of difference. But in the very end, she made it. The learning point, others may be looking down on you, underestimating you because they look to be more sufficient that you in all way. But, nv give up, that's the phrase. And that is what I am going to do, nv to give up, even I know what everyone is saying, their every words, what they mean. The day that I give it up, it would only be decided by me, it would be the results of my actions, and I am sure that it is not a decision just to satisfy people and make them look as if they are good fortune tellers, that they can just anticipate something to happen and it would. At least I will try my best, nth but my best.

Is it a blessing in disguise? I am glad that a way has been found, at least I hv controlled myself. But I realise that I am lying about what I have been saying. I really cannot have the strength to fulfil what I think, b'cos its just too hard to want to part with you. However, I will find a way to make sure that all that I am feeling for you is just true love, and not romance. Should what I want fail through, at least true love can bring me through......

Its been like 1 week since I posted anything?

ok

Well, talk about the Sept Hols. I studied from morning to afternoon, eat lunch, watch a little TV, take a nap, then in the night study again. Whoa, tired sia. Well, but at least I managed to complete my e-maths TYS, with the exception of probability which I would leave to tomorrow to complete. Then did some other sch eng papers too, cos my eng is like quite bad. Hmmm.... read up on phy electronics too, can understand it better now, esp. my most feared logic gates, cant really master it well in the past.

Then, abt today. Had tuition in the late morning then went out with kenneth. Walked past HDB hub on e way and saw quite a no. of ppl signing up for the project superstar competition. We went to PS, watched Singapore dream. Quite nice, esp. when the both of us like to hear ppl speaking hokkien. Haha. We were like speaking hokkien in the cinema too. Well, I should say not only in the cinema, but everytime. Haha. Ok, back to PS. After the movie, we went to the arcade to play time crisis 3 and some racing games. Its my 1st time playing Time crisis 3,well, not bad.Managed to hit my targets quite accurately. Kenneth was like a little slow in reaction in shooting, but well, its quite ok for a beginner.

Feeling so sleepy nowdays, dunno why too. Like keep wanting to fall asleep. And I realise I am getting an even shorter attention span on my work, like cant really concentrate. Drank so many things also didnt help, chicken essence, milo, coffee, milk, wine( well it made me sleepier, lol. ) and orange juice? Yah. In the end, sleeping was the best solution. lolx.

Oh, and my new specs had the metallic nose support thing off. Some guy accidentally hit the bball at my face while at the bball court. Then, mum brought it to the shop and they said they would change the frames for free. I guess the frame came with a 1 month warranty. Whew, that was lucky.

I dunno whats wrong with me. I seem so listless without you. However, what others are saying is not going to affect me. I want to change your opinion, your views, your feelings. I am going to. At least I am willing to try, despite people telling me the difficulty. One day, when everything still does not work out, at least it would be good enough for me to know that I have tried and I would leave with no regrets, absolutely no regrets at all. But all things will not work out if you still hold on to that biased opinion of yours. I sincerely hope that you will not be influenced by others and to experience things for yourself before coming to a conclusion.

You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in your world

Love is like a mountain, its hard to climb and you have to overcome many obstacles. But once you get to the top, the view is magnificent.

Wow, I heard Qian Li Zhi Wai like 50 times today? Its quite nice. For those who dunno, its one of Jay Chou's new songs in his new to release album. Well, that song is quite unique because its sung together with Fei Yu Qing. sounds funny, cos both singers have different styles of singing. Heard that he was invited to sing with Jay cos Jay's mothers love hearing him sing. The more I listen to it, the more I like it, yar.

So many artists releasing their new album these days. S.H.E, Li Sheng Jie, F.I.R and soon Jay Chou. Its been great listeing to all their songs. No wonder my mp3 has a large increase in songs.

Oh, I skipped lunch today. Well, not because I had no appetite. But cos, I ate a whole apple strudel for brunch. So full. But cant blame me for finishing it,its just so nice. My bro only had a slice. I finished the rest. Tastes really great. Later ate some sushi and drank a little little white wine. Burped so much after that.

Prelims are near, gotta study hard.

I yearn to see you laugh again, so that it can set me smiling in my heart.

I will pray for your safety and happiness...