I learnt this very interesting quote over the weekend. It goes like this. "When I am correct, nobody remembers. When I am wrong, nobody forgets" Really,I feel that this quote reflects current society, whereby most people just past their judgement mainly on what mistakes others have committed, instead of thinking about their positive side. Of course, there would be a minor group of good-hearted people out there who would view others in the positive perspective. This is just the cruel fact of the society. We put ourselves above by mentioning other's mistakes and putting them in a negative spotlight. How saddening it is to know of that. Also, its very true of most people but still some deny the fact. When you're off to a better social class or interacting with people who are affluent, most of the time, you neglect those who are in a more lowly spot than you. When you're down, they are the ones whom you seek help from but the moment you're getting better, you leave them down there, not bothering about their affairs and carry on with your life as if nothing has ever happened. Perhaps I am too sensitive to the happenings around me to pass such a statement but dont hide these facts. Deep in our hearts, when searching our conscience, we know its certainly true.

Through these short 2 weeks,I've gained alot. I knew how to react better and have a positive mindset. I reflected and realised that "hey", what I thought I was in the past was not reflective of me after all. I mentioned truck loads of values but found out that actually I have not been carrying them out. I pondered and planned and told myself to move on with it. Its definitely worth to see a change in me. At least if not for others, I'm doing it for myself. I have a quote to link this up. "What you think you know, you actually might not know"

School's been rather fine for me,except for the part of CCA. Not sure which to go for though. The subjects are currently rather manageble. I should not say easy because of my above quote. HAHA. Seriously, I really feel for that quote.

So Baoren, did I take more than 5 mins???HAHA. Doubt so..=P

Life's fast paces never seem to slow down.

YUPs, Im feelin better and much better now.I also learned to look at a much more wider perspective and I begin to feel that I am starting to change.Hmmmm...That's good.HAHA

Oh gosh theres sch tmr from 8-4but well,tt's quite usual. I only need to go through the 2 toughest days of my week(Tuesday and Wednesday) and then the timings would be more relaxed.

Lets hope that Manutd pull 1 through against AC Milan tomorrow morning. =)

All of a sudden, the song "reflections" (One of the songs in the movie Mulan) really fits my mood now.. Just am I who I am?

Is it so tough to just find out who I really am, which identity is my true self? This is getting v confusing for me and its taking a huge toll on my heart and mind. Did I choose the wrong path? Is this what I really want to do, what I want to be? Someone there, please, help me.

Just like how we cant break a whole bunch of chopsticks, just like how we cant possible break down a strong structured building made from tons of small but solid bricks, if we can harness the every bit of our heart, mind and soul and place them together, the strength is unimaginable.

Every item and everyone has their significant part..

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JAMIE!! ALL THE BEST IN NJC!!

How does it feel to be out of your comfort zone, to interact with the surroundings, to be required to be connected with it? It is certainly not an easy task. Tormenting is the word to say. However, there are many outside who are going through a tougher time than me, with 1 of my friend going to the USA alone to pursue her studies as an example,I instantly realise that my worries are nothing compared to hers. A person alone in some far away land, distant from where you call home. The kind of discomfort present. Not much help to look for. Its finding out what others are going through that makes me feel that my "journey" is deemed as better than theirs.

My mind just proposed to me the idea of being a psychologist in the future and I would really seriously consider that as a career option. Its definitely nice being one, with the ability to help others out of their cages that trap their minds. Because any later, no one will know what might ever take place, for the mind is one of the most puzzling thing humans have ever explored and have failed to understand how it works as a whole. Only by counselling can we help them and this is something very meaningful indeed. As a person who went through such troubles before, there are really no words to describe this feeling of lost, the anxiety of the mind. Knowing that you are able to being someone out of this mental torment and to strengthen their soul is certainly possessing a feeling that goes out of this world, a kind of happiness nothing can be measured with. That, is to me, the highest level of contentment, a kind of success in life.

The weekends are coming and I hope that these 2 days would be a good time for me take a deep breath and catch up with some work and rest. Waiting for these 2 days seemed so long in my mind, so long and always seemed not to come.

Today,is the 3rd day of school.Sad to say, I've not really integrated into school life yet. Maybe it takes a little more time for me, since I'm new and green to the school. Anyway, the lecturers and lessons were quite interesting and I had some knowledge of the terms before from my Dad who showed my some of his office work, since he is in the engineering line too. He said that all engineers would go through the same fundamentals in year 1 of engineering. True enough, I found out from my other cousins and they also went through the same thing either in polytechnic or university. Caught a glimpse of the fighter jet that was on display and I got to say that I really does take a lot of courage to be able to sit into a plane and fly it. A wrong move might cause your life because the aircraft is really very sophiscated. Got to know my lecturers and I'm quite glad they have loads of experience, judging from their age I suppose.

Took a walk around the CCA fiesta and most of the CCAs that I'd prefer were too demanding,as in loads of training days. In the end,I made up my mind to take up chess. I do hope that I can train up my patience and strategizing skills which will certainly be very useful in my working life.

My days in Polytechnic end at an averge of around 4pm to 5pm. Lessons starts at either 8am or 10am so not much of a difference from other institutions of higher learning.

Looking forward to my weekends for now because I can organise my stuff properly and get started on revision. As the saying goes, "A good headstart is half the battle won."

1 thing I've learnt though,which is the fact that experience is very important. Sometimes, what we say before we experienced something and what do we say after most of the time differs quite a fair bit, because we tend to make assumptions.This is definitely an important lesson to me.

Believe in your strengths, believe that they will bring you through your toughest of times.

Went for the orientation today. Quite boring in the morning, with all the usual ice-breaker stuff. Moved around the school to look at the different facilities and I must say that the facilities were quite impressive. Hope to get to use them soon, but I know that we have to do all the engineering mathematics stuff first before moving into the subject content. Rained half-way and it granted everyone their wish of going home early, perhaps to celebrate their last week-end before the school term officially starts.

Took some time off today to plan my stuff. Embarrassing to say that, but I realised how useful pre-hand planning really provides me with what to expect and how to execute actions. Finished with my exercise work-out plan. Since my peers are in JC having their super "hoing" PE, I must have a mini one of mine too so as to be as fit as them, especially since I suppose I added more weight lately. Right now, nothing comes before my studies and sports. Only 3 years to change my future, after that, its all quite decided.

I've decided to save up loads of $ and set aside some to spend at the end of the year on Manutd merchandise, not forgetting the long-awaited jersey that I longed to purchase. Nowadays, I find that theres no reason for me to spend my $ on loads of areas such as bags, shoes or even games. Seriously, I'm actually quite tired of playing virtual games, except the few soccer ones. So currently, I'm gonna just save up and bank in most of them into my bank account, with the rest being spent mostly on clothings. =)

883Jia FM's Friday top 20 rocks!!

How nice would it be if everyone's physical appearance would be defined by their character and attitude.. Must it be only then that we see others in a different spot-light?

Another 4 hours more to determine who would face Manutd in the semis of the Champions league. Terrific,absolutely terrific. Coming back from after losing a 2-1 first round match is no great feat for world-class teams, but Manutd has emerged from that category. We are no world-class team, because we simply cannot be measured against anything else, we are unique, special and we've got a winning style of our own. Try us at your own peril,because last night's total thrashing of AS Roma allowed many shocked spectators and players a slight taste of our "fire-power". I could not believe it too. 4-0 at half-time and what's more you're playing a Champions league game, your opponent is a champion in their league and to humiliate them is just discrediting their champions status. Well, too bad we're always a class above those so called champions. I'm just so over-joyed. I guess the Roma goalkeeper did not really know how to react then. Totally shokcing goals from those star players. Seeing his shocked reaction tells me that it would have been an almost impossible task trying to net the ball out. Superb finishes from the strikers and mid-fielders. I just hope for Bayern Munich to face Manutd in the semis because they're simply not so good as AC Milan. You can claim that winning a lousy team does not bring out my team's status and class, but when you win, no one else cares much. =P Looks like I've got to get a Manutd jersey in case those guys make it to the FINALS!!!!!!!!

Looked up into some friendsters and I'm quite surprised to say that many girls do support Manutd. Its puzzling enough to know that girls actually do watch soccer and at such late timings. I am not trying to say that girls cant watch soccer, but the number seems large enough to be worth mentioning. Well, it doesn't matter to me though, unless they're supporting MANUTD!!

School's starting soon next week. I have a feeling that I might miss my slacking days at home. Its been like 5 months since I got down to any proper studying. Yup,not done any since after the Os. Looking ahead, I doubt I'd have any more 5 months break during my poly life and after that, yeah, NS. Moving on, enrolling into a uni and soon before I know it, starting work.No more wasting 5 months of precious time to allow for a break.

Thinking, thinking, thinking...

When different pieces of values are placed together, the puzzle of life would look different..=)

Its simply so disappointing to see Manutd's tragic lost to Portsmouth yesterday night. Placed Rio Ferdinand as captain of my Nokia Football Manager team and seeing him appear with the captain's armband firmly round his arm could never have made me any happier.I thought I would grab quite a number of points for him appearing and being the actual captain. Yeah, everything took a worst turn then on. Manutd's performance was simply tragic with the defence not being able to cope with the strikers. Aerial balls were not won and there was simply lack of basic ball control. What could be worst than seeing Rio Ferdinand, the guy whom I depended on to add more points to the scoreboard, scoring an OWN GOAL! Now, its all back to square one.Overall,Manutd lost, thanks to that goal. The title race is as open as never before. 6 games left and 5 to grab a quick victory. They'd better win otherwise I would'nt know what might happen to me.hah

Fabulous, just fabulous

Received my earliest B'day present today. Few months back I saw this official Manutd Laptop backpack in my cousin's room. It looked quite simple and nice. Most importantly, quite comfortable cushion pads. She told me that there were some at the Mustafa shopping centre near her house and I went there to take a look. In my mind I was hoping that the price tag was not way beyond what I had expected it to be. However, it was. Anyway, I then decided to get a Samsonite one during the future sales. Today, Dad asked me if I needed a Laptop backpack and of course I said I needed one,since he's gg to sponser. Brought him to see the Samsonite ones but he prefered the Manutd backpack, citing reasons like "the logo looks much better??"Hah. In the end, after rounds of choosing,he picked the Manutd one. Wah,finally I have another piece of official Manutd merchandise to add to my current collection. GLORY GLORY MANUTD!!

Suddenly, during these few days, I feel much lighter mentally.Not that I was heavily burdened in the past,but it feels as if I'd broken down a heavy barrier. I took a slight change in terms of current interests. Well, sports and TV still remain as my favourites!

JJ Lin is really a talented singer and song-writer. His songs are simply fabulous and he writes great songs. Why do I say that. Well, I watched the MTV "Feng Shen Bang" (Top 20 weekly album chart) and heard the MV called "Bei feng chui guo de xia tian". That song was composed by him for his junior, Jing Sha. Wah seh, I simply love that song. It's been ages since I heard it. Hearing it again just makes my mind crave for it. To put it simply, he's another jewel to the Singapore crown, the pride of Singaporeans.

Just realised tt quite a few of the players that I entered for the Nokia Football manager team did not play for their clubs. Its a waste of my time and precious points. But I do hope that my prediction of 23 goals being scored for this weekend is correct, because I would reap numerous amounts of points for that. =)

ENJOY!

Whoo,I've gotta say, my soccer skills certainly improved.I manage to fake the sec 1 kids at the street soccer court with my sudden step-overs and swift change in direction. Well, they are still kids afterall but they looked quite pro to me since they can score quite accurately. This is the thing I just dislike about soccer. Unlike basketball, soccer cannot be played alone. It would look quite dumb to score into an empty net. Soccer is best played when there are opponents and team-mates around. That just brings up the excitement. I might be gg down to queensway to get a cheap but good soccer ball,since mine feels like its gonna "pang-chek" soon. Hah. Oh, and maybe if I save up more, I might allow myself to be tempted for once to get an OFFICIAL MANUTD jersey. No more pasar malam types! Actually I do have the financial capability to buy 1 now, but it feels more secure to have more money. =) Now, back to my improvement part.I gotta say, loads of credit should go to watching the EPL itself.Watching it,I learnt the standard moves of the professional players and how to execute the moves correctly. As I always believed, the media sometimes plays an important role in learning.

Good Friday tomorrow. Feels like a Saturday to me.

Anyway,I just discovered this. If you've observed carefully,most CHIJ girls have this kinda certain look on them. I'm not referring to having those arrogant looks kinda category, but just a feeling that you know they are an CHIJ girl. Haha.Maybe I've seen loads of them to develop this kind of thing. Feels wierd. Also,I can sort of guess if a certain girl does belong to which kinda JC. Mostly for the top JCs part. Cant tell for guys though. =P

Dad bought peanut pancake from the market near my old house, which is a street down from the current Farrer park MRT station. Hard to believe,but the peanut pancake still tastes the same,as delicious as before and the pricing did not fluctuate much. I simply love the food there, reminds me of my childhood times,how I used to visit the market almost every weekend. That place still holds memories.

Cant imagine that I would have another friend being posted to Ngee Ann. Its nice to have more people that I know there.Now, I would have known about 5 of my Ngee Ann mates.

Nothing drops from the sky, You've to stretch out and grab it before its too late..

I am simply speechless about Windows vista. The features are really a class above that of Windows XP. Cant believe that they have this automatic solution thing where the computer would send a signal to Windows regarding problems encountered and there would be a solution provided. No compatibility problems up till now, since I am able to install my MP3 drivers and programmeswith any major hiccups. The display is fantastic and when you're loading somthing or updating a driver, the loading bar never fails to be without any 3d motion graphics, with some small glass windows revoling round the top.It really makes a difference, because it just presents the class of the OS. Files and folders are quite "intelligent",with the ability to automatically detect the file's origins and stuff. Actually, the navigation is almost the same as that of Windows XP but just that you would need to take a short few hours playing around with the way programmes are run and where they're located. Once you've got the hang of it, not much kick anymore.LOL. The only part where I do not dare to explore is the C drive parts (HDD). Looks quite complicated to me and since I've to use this for school stuff soon,I'd better not try anything funny.

Damn,Manutd lost their Champions league game against Roma.But lucky theres not a much goal difference so lets hope they can catch up and win at their home stadium, which is the THEATRE OF DREAMS!!

The nostalgia of the south..

Champions league football tonight!! But cant watch it, since the Cable TV station is docked inside my parents' room and they've to get up for work tomorrow. It'd be boring too to stare at a 5-min-refreshing screen for the latest developments in the game. But well, since Manutd are not playing this morning, then I guess I'd be better off sleeping away.

Saw 2 super duper nice MVs today on Cable. 1st one is the Jay Chou MV, with his song Tui Hou. Hebe looked gorgeous in that MV. Now tt I think of it, its quite suitable getting her to act the role of the girl managing a fruit store. But then, would a pretty girl go manage a fruit store in real life?? HAHA.

The next one was by Coco Lee. Her song in the MV was Di jiu Ye(The ninth night as from direct translation). Heard the song over the radio broadcast some weeks back but there was simply no mention of the song name or the artiste. Quite a nice song and only the chorus part has this kinda emotional tune to it. Initially I was not attracted to the song but after hearing the chorus part, it keeps humming up in my mind.

Spider-man 3 is out soon next month.Its quite exciting to see how would Peter Parker deal with those handful of villans. 1 VS all of them. It would be no doubt that he would triumph over those so-called baddies. Otherwise as many would say, "If he lose,where got show to watch". True.

Soleprints..

Threw away volumes of notes and textbooks today, a continuation to the packing of my room. Didnt really bear to throw away all those stuff. Afterall,its part of my precious and wonderful secondary school memories. Flipped through those sec 1 and 2 textbooks,read the side notes that I'd written and really felt like gg back to those good old days again, where we were up to much mischief in our short white pants. Knocking down the fire extinguisher,getting our WWE cards confiscated, those freaky football fridays, going to fool around in ELDDS,escaping from the clutches of miss serene ow(HAHA), getting worried over our PPRs,disturbing the D&T teachers, squeezing loads of mama lemon during home econs lessons.Its really been filled with ups and downs. It seems like we were well-fitted for one another, the kind of compatibility that we have. Everyone loves to come up with some crazy idea, playing soccer,laughing at lame jokes and stuff. Those were just the 1E3 and 2E3 days,just ages ago.

Sec 3 and 4 was not as nice,but not bad too.Knew more people from the other classes and at first felt a little reluctant to leave the 2E3 bunch of people,because it would mean that we cannot be up to something funny yet again. However, after a period of time for us to settle down, things were getting on.Learnt to play a little bball, continued fooling around, tried to escape the constant outlook of the chemistry teacher. Played tricks on wing him by putting so-called wanton on her chair,only for her to flatten it at the end of the lesson. Hid Gary phua's pencil case around the class room and locked his bag to the table leg with the class lock. Lol.

Got to know a group of superb NPCC team-mates who went through the good and tough times for the 4 years.

I sound like I'm graduating soon or maybe even just graduated. Its now April 2007.Long ago from October when the graduation ceremony was held. 6 months, but the memories still remain. I really wonder if I'd the opportunity to go through the same thing once again. Should I have opted for the JC route, only 2 short years to bond with. Not really certain about the poly route though. Really, those secondary school days have been wonderful. I'd not been what I am today without those 4 years. This is not a statement to claim that Im some kinda successful person or anything,but its the mental fulfillment and joy that I've gained through it all. Should there be a day where God would put me through those memories again,I would be certainly most willing to.

Now,its just maintaining contacts with one another that would be the best.

Without realising it, ZHSS had really bought to me something. People used to say this and that abt ZHSS,that its old fashioned, lousy, small those kinda stuff.Well,maybe its because ZHSS has been like a habit in 4 years of their life,and that they were not given the chance to live without it. In layman terms, not appreciating what they had. But once they have been put through the mill with their friends, those tough times, they come out being stronger. Once the school no longer plays a part in their lives, then it would be the time when they start to miss it.Just like me.=(

How nice would it be to don the white school uniform again,with the begonia leaf tightly sewn on the chest pocket.

Life memories cannot be bought over with money. A fulfilling life means living life to the fullest, helping others in any other way you can and bringing along with you wonderful memories of the past. Life is fair.Always.It just depends on your perspective.

Sorry but had too much to rant about the past, simply because its worth talking about.

JOY is made up of 3 simple alphabets, but is not that easy to attain..

What a superb score.4-1 for the Manutd against Blackburn game. Watched the game yesterday with Kenneth and Gid till half-time only though. We watched Mr Bean and the Liverpool VS Arsenal match. Quite boring I shld say,with Liverpool gaining more possession. Well, Mr Bean's quite lame, only some funny parts. Tried many times to connect to the Wireless@SG network at Mac but obviously failed. Its so lousy. Anyway, we watched the matches till half-time and went back home. On our way cutting through the HDB hub, we saw Fiona Xie. So coincidental. She was with the TV crew members, perhaps filming a new show or something.

Now, my passion for soccer is starting to rise. It was quite off for me in the past, with the only few soccer activities I did being watching the hot games live and playing it virtually on the Playstation. Super dull. Now, I'm getting to know the players' statistics and stuff. Unknowingly, it has become more interesting for me. So I guess this is the right time for me to save up more to purchase my official Manutd jersey, not the pasar malam ones anymore. HAHA..

Packed up my room today. Now, I've a Manutd corner. Just a small section inside my tiny little shelf. Theres a mini jersey, some small little banners and a notebook my cousin bought for me all the way from the Manutd shop there in England. Wow. More space to put my stuff now, or rather, my future books. Its a totally different arrangements but I'm quite pleased with it. Well, afterall, I'm the one who packed it. =P

The Theatre of DREAMS, where it would all start but never end...