Lord I pray that at the end of it all, should the castle collapse, I will still escape with minor injuries, and that I will not bear the whole brunt of it all, for I know you have a bigger purpose for me after I break free from this chronic condition.

All the sweat and blood shed. All the effort. All the attention. All the thoughts. All the love. All the time. All the care. For whom shall it belong to? For only the Lord shall have the answers.

I suppose my body is accustomed to the 8-5 working hours on weekdays. Previously I felt so inclined to sleep when the clock strikes 9pm but now, I yearn to fall asleep at 11pm. =(

Life is indeed just so interesting now. God just takes me by surprise at every corner and renews my faith at every instance when doubts begin clouding in. Such is the power of the Lord. The motivation, the fuel, the inspiration, the power to change my course is just so amazing. Goals laid and determination to strike it! Late, but better than never, I know Jesus hears my prayers every night. The drastic change that I have encountered and the skin I left behind just makes me so refreshed and ready to pursue new heights, oblivious to me for so long.

Jesus, You are the best the world has come to known!

Tell me something God cannot achieve?

Ahh.never doubt God's immense and endless healing powers. I mean from the start I had never cast any serious or even atomical skeptism about it. I never fail to be surprised what God has in the corner for me, be it a blessing or obstacle because it teaches me another lesson in the endless series of life. Perfect, broken, joy, sadness, skeptism, optimism, hesitation, immediate. I'd just pray for what I really would desire as the best result, but at the same time keeping in my prayers for God to not give me the best, but to place me through the test, to determine if the desired results would be beneficial for my life in the long run. Never has once did God disappoint. When negative thoughts settle in my mind, God somehow makes the opposite happen. When complacency creeps towards the top of my head, God makes it fall. Ahhh such is the journey with the Lord, a colourful one amidst all the tribulations because it is He who gives us the strength to PUSH, PUSH and still..PUSH!

Finally taking a full day leave tomorrow, though quite regretful =( Never because of the money, but being amidst the temp club people from 8-5. As the chinese put it, 一日不见，如隔三秋。(Separation for a day seems like being away for 3 autumns). Well this abnormal feeling would never ever set place in a normal working person's heart which longs for anything other than office work. But since I am a temp, everything's different. At 8.30 am when work starts I long for lunch. At 1am when lunch concludes, I yearn for 6pm. Cos thats when I get to really communicate with people of the SMC temp club. Haha. All the office jokes and funny movements of our fellow colleagues. Cant help imagining what happens during June/July when the "club" will be disbanded..forever. =(

Alright, the not so usual place for me to visit but since tomorrow's Good Friday, it provides as a good opportunity to do a blog post.

So work's alright so far...place is near...money seems good...colleagues are fine...timings are flexible.I mean what more can I request for unless I am the one comfortably seated inside the CEO room. =P

Well today's a special occasion cos I got accepted into NUS MUHAHAHAHAHAHA.... I mean its like finally I have been shifted from poly to uni and not many people make that move so I guess Im 1 of the blessed few who is able to be part of that change. Still, uni poses as a big big problem as well, but a problem to be solved 2 years down. =)

However, despite it being so happening, I find that it is sucha unusual transition period for me. From being responsible for projects, school work to leading a mundane 8-5 working life with minimal responsibilities and just nothing to think about when I get home. Now I am in total agreement with what many working colleagues often term..."the no work" syndrome. You feel a loss in sense of directions, you get bored yet frustrated, you get uptight, you find minor things to do and sometimes make a big fuss out of it..All in all, lets sum it up, the solution is "I need more and more work!" How sad are we ...hmmm...

Alright and since tomorrow's Good Friday, where our Lord Jesus sacrificed himself to redeem mankind of all sins, lets just pray and tell God how Great He is to make that ultimate sacrifice for the benefit of mankind, and that God IS GREAT!

Thank You Lord, Thank You Jesus! =))

Alright, I cant believe that the first time Im gonna use the Ngee Ann swimming pool would be during my last day as a student at Ngee Ann. God bless that it doesnt rain tomorrow. =)

Too hard to accept that CNY is indeed more than just around the corner. It is just HERE, in a few more days time. But somehow this year's CNY atmosphere doesnt feel the same as before. No not that I lost any relatives, the Lord's blessings for that, but rather, the joy in celebrating it is masked up by the endless lists of project & assignment deadlines and administrative procedures needed before school ends. Numb to any celebratory feelings now =P

And while I am still on the topic of administrative procedures, the testimonials and cca records and results submission as evidence to the various unis is taking its toll on me. The overwhelming information to absorb and lengthy checklist to check is seriously very time consuming. Add that to uncooperative personnel in the admin office and you could get very impatient and frustrated. Well, to ensure that people in the office do their job, there's only 1 thing you can do, which is to CHASE THEM. Hound them every single day till they get sick of it and start getting something done. No choice, since I've a deadline to meet as well =P

On a random note, I think that Apple's line of PMP players do not produce excellent sound quality despite the heavy price tag. Creative and Cowon PMPs do. But when you buy an Apple product, its universally understood, it comes along with the style, recognition and unbeatable user interface.

Jesus You're the Greatest we can ever have!

Lord I humbly asked for your guidance and now I am very glad I possess Your answer for me.

So with the end of tomorrow brings the last.Yes, last week of my poly life. I somehow have a voice inside me to tell me to treasure.No not the days, but the minutes and seconds we are together as a class. I mean no such fate can promise to gather all of us back in the same place again, and with the same status as students of Ngee Ann's Aerospace Electronics.

Going to take some photos tomorrow of the sch, the classrooms, my beloved FYP project, my friends and all. The memories will go a long long way, up till the day I leave for God.

Somehow, I am quite decided on Engineering, with all the good talk about it and most importantly, I feel the want to continue in a field that I am familiar in. Business was just an escape from engineering but deep down I know its the want to run away from hard work. But now, I feel the passion for it, especially after thinking through my whole FYP journey and how I managed to make it through.

Lord, as they say, All Glory to You, only the Highest You.

ESD mini project...

AEIS lcl...

AEIS mini project 2...

studying for the exams...

This is all I have left before sch closes and well... a closing of a chapter of my much appreciated poly life. No regrets, certainly, except the fact that year 1 sem 2's results was a little too average.. Im going to do my very very best for the last leg. Its not the 100m mark as they say when you mention last leg. Its the last 1m for me. The finish line for all 3 years of hard work, tolerance and patience is just very well within reach. But somehow I have my reservations about crossing the line because I jolly well know that once I cross it, the finishing line will be torn and very true, no more turning back. As I mentioned, not regrets, but rather the reliving of memories. And as you say, they have found a place in my memory bank well stored in my mind.

Lessons, and sometimes skipping some...Practicals...canteens...library...etching room??...AE hub...friends...lecturers...TSOs...machine room...ccas...programming...soldering...drilling...KAP...kfc...pool...alumni...

All these are surfacing together with...

NUS???...NTU???...EE???...EEE???...Biz???...Acc???...civil eng???...

Lord please grant me the strength and provide me the necessary wisdom to push through this stage peacefully. Give me the help I need to make a wise decision that will ensure my mind will be at peace. Lord help me to overcome this difficult phase of transition and make me stronger spiritually to meet with the challenges ahead. Thank you Jesus for all You have done!

The first post of the new year. Its been a busy time since the last time I've blogged and I was on the verge of not recalling its presence.

So with last Thursday draws an end to the final panel review of PD2. Didnt get into the examiner review and there goes my A. But at least theres a B+. Sch is coming to an end but I dont like it. Though we keep pondering about our future, what are we going to do right after we graduate, I dont think many of us like to leave this comfort zone of ours at blk 6 lvl 6 where we get stressed, we sweat, we play, we do nonsensical stuffs, we "scream" OEI and @#%%^&$%@#. With all that added in, I feel that my examiner review is just so insignificant. I mean perhaps there was a bigger meaning to not attending it, like..erm helping my friends with stuffs, playing games, interacting, talking cock, doing my mini projects and what not. Yeah, its a pure form of enjoyment , rather than a shifty excuse or rather advantage of not attending the A review. At the very least I get to deeply sense my surroundings and appreciate the very last hours of sch. From the regretful start to the wonderful end, time here has always been well spent. With all the talk about uni, NS and even working life, it just draws closer the very fact that we are going to leave one another, for some perhaps for good. Fate brought us together and it will bring us together in future again.

Somehow the imprisonment feel from year 1 seems just so sweet in comparison to the freedom of a graduating student. Seriously I feel more whole as a cohort in AE than in sec sch as a level or class. We are more familiar with one another and not to mention the lecturers. Ahhh going on makes me more sian. =P

So, Thank You Lord for the wonderful ups and downs throughout my 3 years in Ngee Ann. Its been great to know that You are walking this stage of life's journey with me and counting and I hope that Lord You will continue to shower Your Blessings on me and those around whom I care for. Thank You Lord, Thank You Jesus. Amen.