A wise woman who was traveling in the mountains found a precious stone in a stream. The next day she met another traveler who was hungry, and the wise woman opened her bag to share her food. The hungry traveler saw the precious stone and asked the woman to give it to him. She did so without hesitation. The traveler left rejoicing in his good fortune. He knew the stone was worth enough to give him security for a lifetime.
But, a few days later, he came back to return the stone to the wise woman. "I've been thinking," he said. "I know how valuable this stone is, but I give it back in the hope that you can give me something even more precious. Give me what you have within you that enabled you to give me this stone."
Sometimes it not the wealth you have but what's inside you that others need.
Character may be manifested in the great moments, but it is made in the small ones.
-- Phillip Brooks
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Sand and stone
A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND, AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE
This is just so touching. It really potrays the tolerance, understanding and forgiveness we should have for our friends.
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND, AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE
This is just so touching. It really potrays the tolerance, understanding and forgiveness we should have for our friends.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Inspiring quotes
Just some inspiring quotes in addition to my post today
---If you think that the world means nothing, think again. You might mean the world to someone else.
---True friendship never ends.
---Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
( I dont know it this is true,haiz)
---Most people walk in and out of you life. But only True friends leave footprints in your heart.
---The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
---If there is a future there is time for mending-Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
--- Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special - Don't ever forget it!
---If you think that the world means nothing, think again. You might mean the world to someone else.
---True friendship never ends.
---Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
( I dont know it this is true,haiz)
---Most people walk in and out of you life. But only True friends leave footprints in your heart.
---The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
---If there is a future there is time for mending-Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
--- Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special - Don't ever forget it!
A golden heart
No sch today, due to the good results by the previous batch of sec 4s.
Want to talk about the road marshall on Sat. Was quite busy. Why? Not all 17 people turned up. The message was passed down, but not all received it. And instead of 17 people coming down, we were left to 10 men. We could still manage it after all. Took the back carpark and had a whole lot of cars coming in at the same time. Took quite a long time to park them all. After lunch, went to take over the front carpark. Parents were really annoying. they dont even show a god example. For instance, when 1 was told to go to the HDB carparks to park, he told he to tell the principle that she was wasting his time. Another blasted at me when he could not find a place to park. Wow, good role models? More like uneducated pigs. Now on the other hand, I just have some parents who are so nice. They smile at me and say thanks you even when they are told to go to the HDB carparks to park. These are those who really understand our predicament and I thank them for that.
Thanks a lot Fiona for bringing your full u and offering to help. At least I have someone here who supports us rather than others who just cant be bothered, as if they are the only ones to do up their full u at 12am.
Was quite appreciative of Edric sir's actions on Sat. Was sweeping the room then when there were some twines of the floor which I wanted to pick up, he helped me with it. Later on at the road marshall, he saw me being very tired so he offered to take over me for a while while I go take a break. Next, he even calmed me down with that super " uneducated" parent who blasted at me so that I dont talk back. He even ran to ask Mr Ang what time to release us as we were doing for such a long time and were very tired. What I can see from this is that he is always there to help us, no matter what it is. This is not some kind of bootlicking session so those who are not comfortable with it, the exit is just at the top right hand corner.
This question keeps coming to me. Are we suppossed to prove others wrong, to let them see that what they are thinking is wrong, or should we just leave it as it us and tell them to think whatever they want. I feel that the second attitude is just utter rubbish. 1st example. The NCO squad. We were told by some CIs in the past that we might not make it to become NCOs, but we did and even got into the CC finals. Did we at the point tell them to think what they want. No. We proved them wrong. When someone tells you something, reflect about it first and see if there can be anything done, rather than to just dismiss it on first thought. If there is nothing wrong, there is nothing to hide. This is one of the ways to improve yourself, to change for the better so that others can see you as a role model. The appearance does not matter, the golden heart does.
Just thought of this "equation" ADS ------> Attitude+discipline=success
In conclusion, I realised that as far as we may have people who are unreasonable, we also have others who deserve to be respected, people who come down to help you all the way, thinking of completing the job first before thinking about their own welfare and comfort. This shows their attitude and discipline level deep down. Its really touching to know that there are still such people around, people who do all the background work.
Want to talk about the road marshall on Sat. Was quite busy. Why? Not all 17 people turned up. The message was passed down, but not all received it. And instead of 17 people coming down, we were left to 10 men. We could still manage it after all. Took the back carpark and had a whole lot of cars coming in at the same time. Took quite a long time to park them all. After lunch, went to take over the front carpark. Parents were really annoying. they dont even show a god example. For instance, when 1 was told to go to the HDB carparks to park, he told he to tell the principle that she was wasting his time. Another blasted at me when he could not find a place to park. Wow, good role models? More like uneducated pigs. Now on the other hand, I just have some parents who are so nice. They smile at me and say thanks you even when they are told to go to the HDB carparks to park. These are those who really understand our predicament and I thank them for that.
Thanks a lot Fiona for bringing your full u and offering to help. At least I have someone here who supports us rather than others who just cant be bothered, as if they are the only ones to do up their full u at 12am.
Was quite appreciative of Edric sir's actions on Sat. Was sweeping the room then when there were some twines of the floor which I wanted to pick up, he helped me with it. Later on at the road marshall, he saw me being very tired so he offered to take over me for a while while I go take a break. Next, he even calmed me down with that super " uneducated" parent who blasted at me so that I dont talk back. He even ran to ask Mr Ang what time to release us as we were doing for such a long time and were very tired. What I can see from this is that he is always there to help us, no matter what it is. This is not some kind of bootlicking session so those who are not comfortable with it, the exit is just at the top right hand corner.
This question keeps coming to me. Are we suppossed to prove others wrong, to let them see that what they are thinking is wrong, or should we just leave it as it us and tell them to think whatever they want. I feel that the second attitude is just utter rubbish. 1st example. The NCO squad. We were told by some CIs in the past that we might not make it to become NCOs, but we did and even got into the CC finals. Did we at the point tell them to think what they want. No. We proved them wrong. When someone tells you something, reflect about it first and see if there can be anything done, rather than to just dismiss it on first thought. If there is nothing wrong, there is nothing to hide. This is one of the ways to improve yourself, to change for the better so that others can see you as a role model. The appearance does not matter, the golden heart does.
Just thought of this "equation" ADS ------> Attitude+discipline=success
In conclusion, I realised that as far as we may have people who are unreasonable, we also have others who deserve to be respected, people who come down to help you all the way, thinking of completing the job first before thinking about their own welfare and comfort. This shows their attitude and discipline level deep down. Its really touching to know that there are still such people around, people who do all the background work.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
To just think calmly
Saw this book at one of the bookstores at Changi Airport. It was titled "the rules of life" Read some of the pages and found it to be quite interesting. That was what I really thought of when I reflected on my actions and other's behaviour. the values and teachings of life. Quite rare to see such books nowadays, with all the top sellers being novels and "money generating" books. I am just going to buy it.
Friends. Do they appear only when you need help? Do they come only if you have helped them? We all get the answers to my questions above but do we do it? Why is it that we dont do what we know? This is just so ironic. Friends should be there all the time, not only when you are down. The phrase goes like this, friends share the sweet joys of life with you and endure the sufferings of it beside you. If you are a friend, you should be there always, not only when the situation calls for it. For example, do you only start doing exercises only when you are unfit? No. You can still do it when you are in the pink of health. Haiz, just so sad to see someone turning out to be like that. And that person's lucky that there is a friend to help in times of troubles. Really feel sorry but at the same time happy for the other friend because she has understood the meaning of life and to be forgiving and appreciative, to be there to endure all the sacarsism and still care for her friend.
Read a close passage in the zhuo ye bu and felt enlighted after reading it. It is from zhuo ye 7 and its this story about 2 neighbours. Please take a minute to read it if you have the time. Anyway, just want to comment on the ending. The morale was that small words and actions can really cause misunderstandings, but at the same time, clear them and touch someone's heart.
Just so confused over what I see nowadays. Some things are not going on right. What I know just does not seem to be taking place and instead something else is happening. I think it will be before long that I will just get so tired of everything. Getting so hot tempered these few days because of someone. Just not the way I expected that person to behave. Need some temper control here. I hope that my disappointment does not set in from you, I hope not and never to but I will still be forgiving, as you have asked of me and I will deliver my promise.
Caught a short part of the MTV for feng on cable tv last night. Looks so romantic and relaxing, with Jay Chou and a girl in and outside a house with a few trees that were sheeding their yellow leaves. The last part saw the girl walking into the house with the wall decorated with her photos together with Jay Chou. So nice. Going to borrow the MV from Jons soon.
Calmness is just what I need now
Friends. Do they appear only when you need help? Do they come only if you have helped them? We all get the answers to my questions above but do we do it? Why is it that we dont do what we know? This is just so ironic. Friends should be there all the time, not only when you are down. The phrase goes like this, friends share the sweet joys of life with you and endure the sufferings of it beside you. If you are a friend, you should be there always, not only when the situation calls for it. For example, do you only start doing exercises only when you are unfit? No. You can still do it when you are in the pink of health. Haiz, just so sad to see someone turning out to be like that. And that person's lucky that there is a friend to help in times of troubles. Really feel sorry but at the same time happy for the other friend because she has understood the meaning of life and to be forgiving and appreciative, to be there to endure all the sacarsism and still care for her friend.
Read a close passage in the zhuo ye bu and felt enlighted after reading it. It is from zhuo ye 7 and its this story about 2 neighbours. Please take a minute to read it if you have the time. Anyway, just want to comment on the ending. The morale was that small words and actions can really cause misunderstandings, but at the same time, clear them and touch someone's heart.
Just so confused over what I see nowadays. Some things are not going on right. What I know just does not seem to be taking place and instead something else is happening. I think it will be before long that I will just get so tired of everything. Getting so hot tempered these few days because of someone. Just not the way I expected that person to behave. Need some temper control here. I hope that my disappointment does not set in from you, I hope not and never to but I will still be forgiving, as you have asked of me and I will deliver my promise.
Caught a short part of the MTV for feng on cable tv last night. Looks so romantic and relaxing, with Jay Chou and a girl in and outside a house with a few trees that were sheeding their yellow leaves. The last part saw the girl walking into the house with the wall decorated with her photos together with Jay Chou. So nice. Going to borrow the MV from Jons soon.
Calmness is just what I need now
Sunday, March 19, 2006
A punching bag
I just want a punching bag. To punch at it all day long. To punch away all the troubles, all the misery and at the end of all the punching, I will feel much better. I can get the punching bag, the money is a small matter. But am I able to break from the misery after all the punching? I doubt so.
Seeing people posting about how they have grown up through certain events. Now is my turn to share. Since sec 1, I was the innocent boy who possessed no confidence to do what was expected of a sec 1 boy. Through NPCC and many events, I feel that my life has somewhat changed. To be more exact, there has been good times and bad times. Anyway, I just want to say that allow your misery to be turned in a driving force.For example in NPCC. After Miss Long's departure, we may feel that moment of sadness. But if we pick that up and turn it into motivation, we will strive towards a better unit. That's the point I am driving at. To be honest, I learnt much through hardship. Not in the sense of pumpings, but throught some physical and mostly emotional pain. However at the end of the day, it is your attitude towards that issue that matters, not what had happened.
Now about bonding. I just find this quite true. For instance, if a class wants to make a class t-shirt. So what if you have the t-shirt? Does it bind u all in your hearts? I would rather an invisible but strong bond. Something that cannot be seen but is priceless, rather than on the surface "acts"
Next. Well, this is not a biased opinion nor is it against someone. Let me cite an example. Would you find eating your favourite chicken rice all the time boring? I do. That's why we have got to change. Now here is reality. We must interact with other people and not stay with the same old people all the time. This is something I have learnt. Learn and talk to others, find out how they feel and why is it happening. This would allow you to know why certain things are happening.
There are just some things that I do not wish to post here. I am afraid it will be too sensitive and hurt you. You have been hurt badly enough. I do not wish to inflict more. Well back to my first point again. If there are matters that I cannot say out and it gets stuck inside me for too long, I will really need to punching bag to punch all my troubles away. I agree with what Dad said. I once asked him why do fortune tellers need to go aound telling others their fortune and not predict their own. If they can know their own fortune and be able to direct their path towards a money making one, why not? This was his reply. He said that fortune tellers can tell others their fortunes, but never their own. It is just this strange. I applied it to my own troubles. I can help others, give them advice, console and motivate them. But I just cannot do the same for myself. It is also just so puzzling and ironic.
I just want to break free from all these misery. I really want to. But I know that all this will mould me. That's why I want the misery to stay and I must fight back those challenges. I must.
Seeing people posting about how they have grown up through certain events. Now is my turn to share. Since sec 1, I was the innocent boy who possessed no confidence to do what was expected of a sec 1 boy. Through NPCC and many events, I feel that my life has somewhat changed. To be more exact, there has been good times and bad times. Anyway, I just want to say that allow your misery to be turned in a driving force.For example in NPCC. After Miss Long's departure, we may feel that moment of sadness. But if we pick that up and turn it into motivation, we will strive towards a better unit. That's the point I am driving at. To be honest, I learnt much through hardship. Not in the sense of pumpings, but throught some physical and mostly emotional pain. However at the end of the day, it is your attitude towards that issue that matters, not what had happened.
Now about bonding. I just find this quite true. For instance, if a class wants to make a class t-shirt. So what if you have the t-shirt? Does it bind u all in your hearts? I would rather an invisible but strong bond. Something that cannot be seen but is priceless, rather than on the surface "acts"
Next. Well, this is not a biased opinion nor is it against someone. Let me cite an example. Would you find eating your favourite chicken rice all the time boring? I do. That's why we have got to change. Now here is reality. We must interact with other people and not stay with the same old people all the time. This is something I have learnt. Learn and talk to others, find out how they feel and why is it happening. This would allow you to know why certain things are happening.
There are just some things that I do not wish to post here. I am afraid it will be too sensitive and hurt you. You have been hurt badly enough. I do not wish to inflict more. Well back to my first point again. If there are matters that I cannot say out and it gets stuck inside me for too long, I will really need to punching bag to punch all my troubles away. I agree with what Dad said. I once asked him why do fortune tellers need to go aound telling others their fortune and not predict their own. If they can know their own fortune and be able to direct their path towards a money making one, why not? This was his reply. He said that fortune tellers can tell others their fortunes, but never their own. It is just this strange. I applied it to my own troubles. I can help others, give them advice, console and motivate them. But I just cannot do the same for myself. It is also just so puzzling and ironic.
I just want to break free from all these misery. I really want to. But I know that all this will mould me. That's why I want the misery to stay and I must fight back those challenges. I must.
Friday, March 17, 2006
Just back from camp
Just got home from the annual camp
On the overall, quite a fun camp I should say. But yup, as there is always the fun part, there will be a sad past and this time there is are times when I am pissed off and disappointed.
Fun first. The activities were quite well planned and interesting. I love the dragon boating, amazing race, water games and night walk. The times we spent in the night were fun too, where Jun Liang would entertain me with his jokes and lame stories. Well, not the same for the second night. Jun Liang was just so tired to do anything and the rest were all snoring upstairs.
The sad part. This is our last annual camp. I remembered in sec 1 when I was just a cadet. I did not like the punishments given in the camp and resented doing all the activities because they were so tiring. I thought that the would be much opportunities for our squad to be together so it would not hurt if I just slack this once. And so I carried this thought with me for the next 1 year. I regretted it. In fact now, I am so disappointed with myself for not grabbing an opportunity to interact more with my squadmates. Now, when there is not going to be much time left, I appreciated all the times we had and hoped for more. But it is all too late. Just too late for anything. The 12 trainings we have left cannot do much. I just cannot get rid of this guilt feeling in myself, the feeling of sadness for not treasuring the times we had together. Prehaps I am just too anti-social in the past and and maybe even recently. Haiz. This barrier must be removed.
Another thing. Miss Long's departure. As posted earlier, I am sure those who read it knows about it and my sadness. However, all my emotions were not totally shown until today. For the last few days, I think that I am just consoling myself, that Miss Long is just a little more than ordinary TO, maybe just that few lessons that she taught us to change our life. But her short talk today and the cadet's farewell for her made my consolation fade away. I just accepted the fact that she made much changes to the unit. Maybe my consolation was just to control my tears. However, my tears came down today. I guess its just sad to see someone leaving. I will remember her quote, forever.
We want golden cadets, not a undisciplined gold unit. Her quote, or saying, just reinforces the fact that we all should look out for other's and our own chatacter, not just focusing on our outside appearance. Typing this really touches me deeply and makes me feel like crying again.
Ok, lastly, a peronal issue. Just want to ask this person, do you talk or communicate with me only when you have troubled times or when you are bored? Am I nothing but just a backup? I tried, I talked, I understood. I was lonely for long. I do not expect people to feel sorry or sympathise with me. I did the stuff but was not apprecaited for doing so. I tried to tell myself not to be discouraged but I get more sad with the same response each time. Am I the odd one out? I just feel that I am doing all the back ground work. In fact, I think after this camp, I really appreciate those who do all the background work, all the preparations. They are not recognised yet they continue to do their stuff. This really makes me feel sad. I dont know if I should do this but I am really getting more hostile. I try not to but you force me too. All these are illusions to my positive mindset, all clouding my mind, making me even more confused and hurt. I am uncertain of my next action. Before any changes takes place, I will just tolerate. I seriously think we need to have a nice chat.
I just thought of this small little saying and I am quite happy to share it. It really sounds quite touching but a little too chim.
Seeds of good attitudes and strong moral values are planted in the garden of my heart. They stormed through the tough times and grew out to be young plants that bore sweet fruits. I tasted the sweetnes and enjoyed the joy the fruit gave me and I hope to plant and the seeds that I have obtained from my fruit with others, so that they can taste, and I am able to share, the sweetness of their fruits and the joy that they bring.
Thought of the quote when I was reflecting on some incidents.Anyway, I came to a conclusion, that we should all put ourselves in the position of the other party before judging or coming to conclusions. We must know how others feel and to be more sensitive.
Not that tired after the camp. In fact, more energized and have gained more experience and teaching points. I am going to play basketball now. Enjoy your holidays.
On the overall, quite a fun camp I should say. But yup, as there is always the fun part, there will be a sad past and this time there is are times when I am pissed off and disappointed.
Fun first. The activities were quite well planned and interesting. I love the dragon boating, amazing race, water games and night walk. The times we spent in the night were fun too, where Jun Liang would entertain me with his jokes and lame stories. Well, not the same for the second night. Jun Liang was just so tired to do anything and the rest were all snoring upstairs.
The sad part. This is our last annual camp. I remembered in sec 1 when I was just a cadet. I did not like the punishments given in the camp and resented doing all the activities because they were so tiring. I thought that the would be much opportunities for our squad to be together so it would not hurt if I just slack this once. And so I carried this thought with me for the next 1 year. I regretted it. In fact now, I am so disappointed with myself for not grabbing an opportunity to interact more with my squadmates. Now, when there is not going to be much time left, I appreciated all the times we had and hoped for more. But it is all too late. Just too late for anything. The 12 trainings we have left cannot do much. I just cannot get rid of this guilt feeling in myself, the feeling of sadness for not treasuring the times we had together. Prehaps I am just too anti-social in the past and and maybe even recently. Haiz. This barrier must be removed.
Another thing. Miss Long's departure. As posted earlier, I am sure those who read it knows about it and my sadness. However, all my emotions were not totally shown until today. For the last few days, I think that I am just consoling myself, that Miss Long is just a little more than ordinary TO, maybe just that few lessons that she taught us to change our life. But her short talk today and the cadet's farewell for her made my consolation fade away. I just accepted the fact that she made much changes to the unit. Maybe my consolation was just to control my tears. However, my tears came down today. I guess its just sad to see someone leaving. I will remember her quote, forever.
We want golden cadets, not a undisciplined gold unit. Her quote, or saying, just reinforces the fact that we all should look out for other's and our own chatacter, not just focusing on our outside appearance. Typing this really touches me deeply and makes me feel like crying again.
Ok, lastly, a peronal issue. Just want to ask this person, do you talk or communicate with me only when you have troubled times or when you are bored? Am I nothing but just a backup? I tried, I talked, I understood. I was lonely for long. I do not expect people to feel sorry or sympathise with me. I did the stuff but was not apprecaited for doing so. I tried to tell myself not to be discouraged but I get more sad with the same response each time. Am I the odd one out? I just feel that I am doing all the back ground work. In fact, I think after this camp, I really appreciate those who do all the background work, all the preparations. They are not recognised yet they continue to do their stuff. This really makes me feel sad. I dont know if I should do this but I am really getting more hostile. I try not to but you force me too. All these are illusions to my positive mindset, all clouding my mind, making me even more confused and hurt. I am uncertain of my next action. Before any changes takes place, I will just tolerate. I seriously think we need to have a nice chat.
I just thought of this small little saying and I am quite happy to share it. It really sounds quite touching but a little too chim.
Seeds of good attitudes and strong moral values are planted in the garden of my heart. They stormed through the tough times and grew out to be young plants that bore sweet fruits. I tasted the sweetnes and enjoyed the joy the fruit gave me and I hope to plant and the seeds that I have obtained from my fruit with others, so that they can taste, and I am able to share, the sweetness of their fruits and the joy that they bring.
Thought of the quote when I was reflecting on some incidents.Anyway, I came to a conclusion, that we should all put ourselves in the position of the other party before judging or coming to conclusions. We must know how others feel and to be more sensitive.
Not that tired after the camp. In fact, more energized and have gained more experience and teaching points. I am going to play basketball now. Enjoy your holidays.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
The unpolished gem
Every time I hear the song, I am reminded of you, your beauty, your sweet smile, your innocence. You are like an unpolished gem, waiting to be polished, to show your inner beauty that is always shining so brightly and is so dazzling. May I be the one to polish you, to make you the most shining gem of all. I dream to, I will and I must.
CIP in a few hours time.
Wow, so happy. Clara and Zhiyang are in to the next round of campus superstar. Yeah. They rox.
Camp coming up tomorrow.
Shall blog on Friday then.
CIP in a few hours time.
Wow, so happy. Clara and Zhiyang are in to the next round of campus superstar. Yeah. They rox.
Camp coming up tomorrow.
Shall blog on Friday then.
Monday, March 13, 2006
The ones who befriend, the ones who betray
Start of the hols today, school oral to begin with. Quite ok, could speak what the examiner asked for. Not really a problem.
Played some soccer and basketball. Wow, didnt know birdy could play basketball. Ex-netball player some more. Just so incredible. Haha.
Then went to help the NP people move the camp logistics from Serangoon Central back to school. And at the last part, my pants split! Oh my. Went home with the blue NP pants. Looks quite funny
Anyway, today I saw who were the ones who helped me in times of troubles. I agree with your quote Jamie, that only in times of troubles will you know who are your true friends.
Oh, so sorry to Fiona. Cant see you from the outside of the classroom. Thought you were someone else mah. Cos I thought how come someone keep looking at me then threatened to gouge the person's eyes out. Paiseh didnt know it was you. (And Eunice please stop laughing)
Wah, sometimes just have so much to blog about and when I sit in front of the computer screen, I just forget everything. Maybe I should just note down what I want to blog about.
CIP tomorrow. It also means a little shopping time. Going to buy b'day presents fot those born in April cos dont want to go out after the CIP. And I have someone who is going to tell me her b'day present at 11.59pm. Haha, I shall wait for your call.
Camp's coming up. Quite sad, last annual camp. I just love camps. Getting a few days away from home and just doing super nice activities. And also able to interact a lot during camps. Haiz. I am just going to treasure every minute of this camp.
Meanwhile enjoy your holidays!! And thanks to those who left a note at the tagboard.
Played some soccer and basketball. Wow, didnt know birdy could play basketball. Ex-netball player some more. Just so incredible. Haha.
Then went to help the NP people move the camp logistics from Serangoon Central back to school. And at the last part, my pants split! Oh my. Went home with the blue NP pants. Looks quite funny
Anyway, today I saw who were the ones who helped me in times of troubles. I agree with your quote Jamie, that only in times of troubles will you know who are your true friends.
Oh, so sorry to Fiona. Cant see you from the outside of the classroom. Thought you were someone else mah. Cos I thought how come someone keep looking at me then threatened to gouge the person's eyes out. Paiseh didnt know it was you. (And Eunice please stop laughing)
Wah, sometimes just have so much to blog about and when I sit in front of the computer screen, I just forget everything. Maybe I should just note down what I want to blog about.
CIP tomorrow. It also means a little shopping time. Going to buy b'day presents fot those born in April cos dont want to go out after the CIP. And I have someone who is going to tell me her b'day present at 11.59pm. Haha, I shall wait for your call.
Camp's coming up. Quite sad, last annual camp. I just love camps. Getting a few days away from home and just doing super nice activities. And also able to interact a lot during camps. Haiz. I am just going to treasure every minute of this camp.
Meanwhile enjoy your holidays!! And thanks to those who left a note at the tagboard.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Miracles do happen
Yes, miracles do happen in this world!
Went for E-maths timed practice yesterday until 12. Played a 15 mins long soccer match before going home. Did some homework and went to amk for dinner. Felt bored so went down to Changi airport for swensens ice-cream. Went home, ZzzzZzzzzz.
That's my day yesterday. Quite boring isn't it
Anyway let's talk about something else.
Ok, this is to my friend whom I was angry with a few days ago. Sorry for my harsh reaction towards that issue. Maybe I was too agitated at that point of time. But I think everything should be fine now.
I still possessed this wish, to be able to either play the piano or violin. These are the 2 musical instruments which I find gives me that relaxed tone of music. Shall find time for that after the 'o' levels.
Why do all good things come to an end? Why cant they just last forever? That was something I was thinking about. And I this is my answer. Just like how all miserable stuff come to an end, all good things will come to an end too. In chinese there is a phrase that goes ( tian xia mei you bu san zhi yan xi). But, to me, this all links to the word appreciation. When you know that good things or opportunities come only once, you will truely value that period of time and make the fullest out of it. At least even if it comes to an end, you can still have no regrets because you have made the fullest out of it. That's why we should value every opportunity given to us, for you never know when it will come again.
And Eunice. Haha, I saw him on fri.Just 1 phrase to say, gan qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de.
Lessons learned lightly are easily forgotten. Lessons learnt in hardship are always remembered.
Went for E-maths timed practice yesterday until 12. Played a 15 mins long soccer match before going home. Did some homework and went to amk for dinner. Felt bored so went down to Changi airport for swensens ice-cream. Went home, ZzzzZzzzzz.
That's my day yesterday. Quite boring isn't it
Anyway let's talk about something else.
Ok, this is to my friend whom I was angry with a few days ago. Sorry for my harsh reaction towards that issue. Maybe I was too agitated at that point of time. But I think everything should be fine now.
I still possessed this wish, to be able to either play the piano or violin. These are the 2 musical instruments which I find gives me that relaxed tone of music. Shall find time for that after the 'o' levels.
Why do all good things come to an end? Why cant they just last forever? That was something I was thinking about. And I this is my answer. Just like how all miserable stuff come to an end, all good things will come to an end too. In chinese there is a phrase that goes ( tian xia mei you bu san zhi yan xi). But, to me, this all links to the word appreciation. When you know that good things or opportunities come only once, you will truely value that period of time and make the fullest out of it. At least even if it comes to an end, you can still have no regrets because you have made the fullest out of it. That's why we should value every opportunity given to us, for you never know when it will come again.
And Eunice. Haha, I saw him on fri.Just 1 phrase to say, gan qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de.
Lessons learned lightly are easily forgotten. Lessons learnt in hardship are always remembered.
Friday, March 10, 2006
We will always remember, deep in our hearts
As all NP people know, Miss Long is leaving us in a matter of days time. All these while, her efforts to make the unit a more disciplined one, a unit with all the gold cadets. Even though she did not really do anything to really touch my life, but I sort of admire her way of teaching and listening, softness in strictness ( wen rou dai gang). Even though she scolds us, but at the end of the day, she finds out what is wrong and deals with matters separately with personal stuff. Just want to ask, did anyone remembered who was the one who bought those drinks for us when we completed our CIPs? Who was the one who brought up the fun and laughter in camps and trainings with her jokes and teases. The one who gave us the punishments and made us learnt deeply from it. Someone who always wants to discipline and protect the welfare of the cadets. The person is none other than our ZHSNP's Miss Long. I will always remember her short quote, always remember. " We want a unit with gold cadets, not cadets who obtain a gold but are not having the values NPCC wished to promote". This message really made me feel proud of her, that she is one who deserves to be respected. She recognises the development of the cadets, not just the physical achievements. That is what I always look out for, people who have strong values are truely the ones to be valued. The squad's bond with her is srtong. We moan at her when she metes out punishments, but we learn at the end of the day her reasons for doing so. I really cant bring myself to post more. My memories just flow and I really might let tears flow.
As my sec 2 form teacher, she protected my rights as the Lit rep. Always helping me, no matter if the class sabos me and hands in the work late. Always interacting with the class, resorting to scolding as the last option.
As you leave, we will remember you, the contributions you gave, the fun we had. Last but not least, a great thank you to our TO, Miss Kathleen Long. May you have a fruitful journey of life and do visit us if you can.
Just posted about a TO that will be remembered deeply by ZHNP cadets, esp. the sec 4s.
Now on my friend that I mistrusted. I hope that you can just get over the incident and be back to your normal self again after seeing that note. I feel very hurt too when I see you getting so sad. Its a terrible feeling not to have anyone to confide in. I have tasted that feeling before. Its never nice.
As my sec 2 form teacher, she protected my rights as the Lit rep. Always helping me, no matter if the class sabos me and hands in the work late. Always interacting with the class, resorting to scolding as the last option.
As you leave, we will remember you, the contributions you gave, the fun we had. Last but not least, a great thank you to our TO, Miss Kathleen Long. May you have a fruitful journey of life and do visit us if you can.
Just posted about a TO that will be remembered deeply by ZHNP cadets, esp. the sec 4s.
Now on my friend that I mistrusted. I hope that you can just get over the incident and be back to your normal self again after seeing that note. I feel very hurt too when I see you getting so sad. Its a terrible feeling not to have anyone to confide in. I have tasted that feeling before. Its never nice.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
I am just so hurt
After that moment of calmness, I am feeling so hurt now. It is even worse than a knife being pierced through my heart. No pain can describe it. The reason? Haha, 1 word. Trust.
Someone who betrayed my trust recently.
I planted lots of trust on you, knowing and feeling that you are someone trustworthy, someone who understands. But, the fact turned out to be that you were not what I thought. That was just a small test for me to further trust you. I try not to think of the negative part of the test, the negative results that I might have very little chance of obtaining. But, it still happened. Why cant you just prove me wrong for once? Why must I be forced to believe what others say to me about you. I chose not to believe those that they say but you just supported their statements. This is just a small secret. Imagine if it is some kind of big secret?
I have nothing to say for now. I will draw a clear line between work and personal life. I just hope that you will prove to me that you can once again prove to me that you are trustable again for I really wish to see that. It is just so disappointing for me to know that you have done such a thing. I may be smiling, but deep in my heart, I am forcing the smile and crying at the same time. Crying not for having the sercet leaked out, but that I have lost trust in someone whom I am think is very understanding, trustworthy and dependable.
Meanwhile, I will just remain hurt at heart. This is really a painful process.
Someone who betrayed my trust recently.
I planted lots of trust on you, knowing and feeling that you are someone trustworthy, someone who understands. But, the fact turned out to be that you were not what I thought. That was just a small test for me to further trust you. I try not to think of the negative part of the test, the negative results that I might have very little chance of obtaining. But, it still happened. Why cant you just prove me wrong for once? Why must I be forced to believe what others say to me about you. I chose not to believe those that they say but you just supported their statements. This is just a small secret. Imagine if it is some kind of big secret?
I have nothing to say for now. I will draw a clear line between work and personal life. I just hope that you will prove to me that you can once again prove to me that you are trustable again for I really wish to see that. It is just so disappointing for me to know that you have done such a thing. I may be smiling, but deep in my heart, I am forcing the smile and crying at the same time. Crying not for having the sercet leaked out, but that I have lost trust in someone whom I am think is very understanding, trustworthy and dependable.
Meanwhile, I will just remain hurt at heart. This is really a painful process.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Calmness
Wow, I am feeling calmness and quietness in my heart for the first time in 3 months. So many things happened but most were managed to be resolved.
Hmm.. was just pondering on the phrase, in times of sadness, that is when we can really see who are our true friends. Read this somewhere before but partially forgotten about it. Was just told of this phrase a few days ago by a good friend of mine. Really, I think the phrase, or rather, quote, it quite true, whether you believe it or not. Well, at least I do because I experienced it.
Ok, I found out who was anoymous, or at least, it was the person who told me. Thanks for telling me, did not have the slightest clue that it was you. Dont worry, no secrets to be leaked.
Oh, and 1 more thing. Jamie is getting more flexible with quotes and is knowing how to play mind games. Haha. Remembered the 1st time when I mentioned about quotes and my understanding from them, she was quite blur. Not bad, not bad, you are learning fast. And dont be so quiet. You looked so stressed up. Relax and dont think too much. Confide in your friends if you are unhappy ok? SMILE MORE :)
Some things are just too sensitive to be said here. Some internal stuff. Just thought of it. When I have got something important to post, I will password protect the blog and when those concerned have read it, I will remove the password protect. Sounds like a good idea. Ok, I shall try it out
Hmm.. was just pondering on the phrase, in times of sadness, that is when we can really see who are our true friends. Read this somewhere before but partially forgotten about it. Was just told of this phrase a few days ago by a good friend of mine. Really, I think the phrase, or rather, quote, it quite true, whether you believe it or not. Well, at least I do because I experienced it.
Ok, I found out who was anoymous, or at least, it was the person who told me. Thanks for telling me, did not have the slightest clue that it was you. Dont worry, no secrets to be leaked.
Oh, and 1 more thing. Jamie is getting more flexible with quotes and is knowing how to play mind games. Haha. Remembered the 1st time when I mentioned about quotes and my understanding from them, she was quite blur. Not bad, not bad, you are learning fast. And dont be so quiet. You looked so stressed up. Relax and dont think too much. Confide in your friends if you are unhappy ok? SMILE MORE :)
Some things are just too sensitive to be said here. Some internal stuff. Just thought of it. When I have got something important to post, I will password protect the blog and when those concerned have read it, I will remove the password protect. Sounds like a good idea. Ok, I shall try it out
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Wonderful week
Ah, this week has been a wonderful week.
Every afternoon after SSP, there would be a 1/2 hour soccer session with YC. The we would just kick and kick till he has to go. Wah, gotta stop it next week liao with all the test coming in.
The holidays are all being booked up. Monday filled with physics and chemistry remedials. Tuesday booked for chinese oral and CIP. Wednesday,Thursday and Friday going for NP annual camp. Sad to say, this is the last annual camp liao
I was just thinking, should I close down this blog. I dont even know who are those on the receiving end reading my blog and yeah maybe somehow they got confused and thought I might be speaking about them. Hm..... Maybe not yet. I shall see the response. Or, I will create a private blog. Then Hong Xun can display his computer skills by trying to find my blog. Haha.
When in doubt. What is the sentence that follows? Please clarify. Everyone knows that but but but, does everyone do that. Some people just presume that they are clever enough to know something and just conclude or take action. 3 words, cut the crap. Dont know what I am talking about, dont talk rot. (learnt from Jun Liang). What you hear might not be meant for you.
It's just so great not to be involved in any conflict now. As for the person involved as all knows, I am deciding to give that person a new chance. Why? Maybe a change in attitude I guess and for the sack of everyone getting along better. Dont want to put others in difficult positions.
And eunice ah, I think your doctor gave you the wrong medicine. After 30 injections and I dont see the "chicken pox" like thing disappearing. Want to try my doctor's "nuclear bomb" ? haha
That's all I have to say. Oh thanks to those who tagged at the tagboard esp Fiona, rare tagger.
Every afternoon after SSP, there would be a 1/2 hour soccer session with YC. The we would just kick and kick till he has to go. Wah, gotta stop it next week liao with all the test coming in.
The holidays are all being booked up. Monday filled with physics and chemistry remedials. Tuesday booked for chinese oral and CIP. Wednesday,Thursday and Friday going for NP annual camp. Sad to say, this is the last annual camp liao
I was just thinking, should I close down this blog. I dont even know who are those on the receiving end reading my blog and yeah maybe somehow they got confused and thought I might be speaking about them. Hm..... Maybe not yet. I shall see the response. Or, I will create a private blog. Then Hong Xun can display his computer skills by trying to find my blog. Haha.
When in doubt. What is the sentence that follows? Please clarify. Everyone knows that but but but, does everyone do that. Some people just presume that they are clever enough to know something and just conclude or take action. 3 words, cut the crap. Dont know what I am talking about, dont talk rot. (learnt from Jun Liang). What you hear might not be meant for you.
It's just so great not to be involved in any conflict now. As for the person involved as all knows, I am deciding to give that person a new chance. Why? Maybe a change in attitude I guess and for the sack of everyone getting along better. Dont want to put others in difficult positions.
And eunice ah, I think your doctor gave you the wrong medicine. After 30 injections and I dont see the "chicken pox" like thing disappearing. Want to try my doctor's "nuclear bomb" ? haha
That's all I have to say. Oh thanks to those who tagged at the tagboard esp Fiona, rare tagger.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Nothing but disappointment
I wish to expresss nothing but disappointment with what I have seen, known and heard.
So what if u people are intelligent? Remember, I am scolding a whole group of people here. Does it mean that it gives u the right to ignore your friends around u, go for the things u want at the expense of hurting your friend's feelings, be self-centered. Come on, I have always looked up to u people as role models. Come to think of it now, looks like u all dont deserve that after all. I really feel sorry for this friend of my to go through such pain and still continue to befriend those who treated them badly. For me, haha, those people will have a taste of pain.
And this is to L. Dont assume what u think is the right thing. Your beautiful story just rots and disgusts me. Your actions do not reflect what is said by u and so u must be very happy now I guess. Acting as if the one suffering is u? Take a good look at me and compare. My pain is multiplied 10 times that of yours.
I just have to blog on this tired wednesday night cos I just have too much in my heart to say about those around me. All those looking innocent faces with the knife behind their smiles.
Not even appreciative, sensitive and thoughtful for others. Like what I always say, inner beauty is still better than outer beauty.
Luckily I still have some good friends to stay by me and hear my reasonings and feelings. Thanks to those who stood by me. You know who you are.
Every time I get pushed down, I will come up even stronger the next time. I shall not give up, I will fight till the end because this is worth fighting for.
So what if u people are intelligent? Remember, I am scolding a whole group of people here. Does it mean that it gives u the right to ignore your friends around u, go for the things u want at the expense of hurting your friend's feelings, be self-centered. Come on, I have always looked up to u people as role models. Come to think of it now, looks like u all dont deserve that after all. I really feel sorry for this friend of my to go through such pain and still continue to befriend those who treated them badly. For me, haha, those people will have a taste of pain.
And this is to L. Dont assume what u think is the right thing. Your beautiful story just rots and disgusts me. Your actions do not reflect what is said by u and so u must be very happy now I guess. Acting as if the one suffering is u? Take a good look at me and compare. My pain is multiplied 10 times that of yours.
I just have to blog on this tired wednesday night cos I just have too much in my heart to say about those around me. All those looking innocent faces with the knife behind their smiles.
Not even appreciative, sensitive and thoughtful for others. Like what I always say, inner beauty is still better than outer beauty.
Luckily I still have some good friends to stay by me and hear my reasonings and feelings. Thanks to those who stood by me. You know who you are.
Every time I get pushed down, I will come up even stronger the next time. I shall not give up, I will fight till the end because this is worth fighting for.
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